Halloween is coming again

When my mind is already thinking in Halloweeen, I supposed to be happy, but I´m already sad and scared, Its a difficult day in my life, how I cope with this? I don´t know. I think is time to go...... I finished all my compromises, tv interview, video´s presentation and I´m ready to go, I just wanted to have a different life... finished my studies, have a work......have a life..my own life...a baby to care a bring her all my love......my own home..........